Wednesday, December 22, 2021

The Sweet Indifference of the World by Peter Stamm

The Sweet Indifference of the World by Peter Stamm

The Sweet Indifference of the World
(2018) is a short novel by Peter Stamm. The novel was translated from German to English by Michael Hofmann. The story is a beautiful and curious tale about love, aging, and memory. The book cover is as disorienting as the story itself.

In the first chapter, an old man waits for a woman named Magdalena to visit him on a cold, winter day. She is young and doesn’t age, and she seems to be in the man’s imagination. After she arrives, Magdalena calls to the man to go walking with her outside. She’s much faster than him. The man has forgotten his cane and worries that he will slip and fall when he nears a bridge. His other fear is that he will lose sight of Magdalena.

In the next chapter, Christoph leaves an obscure message for Magdalena, asking her to meet him at a cemetery in Stockholm, Sweden, “Please come to SkogskyrkogÃ¥rden tomorrow at two. I have a story I want to tell you.” A young woman arrives to meet Christoph. She goes by Lena rather than her full name. Lena has never met Christoph before, and he is older than her, but she is curious to hear this stranger’s story.

Christoph tells Lena that he was once a writer. He was writing a novel that was a love story and a portrait of his girlfriend. While writing the novel, he and his girlfriend broke up, so he wrote instead about the impossibility of love. As Christoph tells Lena his story about Magdalena, Lena recognizes that they share the same name. Beyond that, both Magdalena and Lena are actresses, and Lena is dating a man named Chris who is a writer like Christoph.

The Sweet Indifference of the World by Peter Stamm, Chapter 9

These two pairs of people are leading uncannily similar lives though years apart. Christoph continues his story telling Lena that he previously met his doppelgänger Chris and told him about his life with Magdalena and their breakup. Though Chris has actively made different choices than Christoph, it seems that Lena is still dissatisfied with their relationship, and she plans to break up with Chris. However, when Lena looks at Christoph, she tells him that she would choose to stay with Chris if she knew for sure that he would turn out like his double.

The story is compelling, but the novel trails off with a somewhat dissatisfying ending. Is the younger pair destined to the same outcome as their older counterparts? It would be nice to know their fates and whether Christoph’s interventions in Chris and Lena’s lives changed their story. I also half-expected that Lena would break up with Chris for Christoph, and I was somewhat disappointed that this did not occur.

As the novel concludes, Christoph remembers that as a twenty-year-old man, he found an old man who had collapsed near a bridge. As Christoph helped the old man walk home, the old man said something about a woman he went out walking with. I realized that this is the same old man who was waiting for Magdalena in the opening chapter. It left me wondering how many times Christoph has crossed paths with versions of himself during his life and how these moments were sometimes not recognized.

Another aspect of the novel that I contemplated was the names of the characters. Magdalena’s name suggests Mary Magdalene from the Bible, and Christoph is named after Jesus Christ. Lena and Christoph meet in a cemetery, which made me think of how Mary Magdalene discovered that Jesus’s tomb was empty. Perhaps this Christian symbolism is meant to make us consider how stories continue and resurrect themselves without finite endings. Indeed, Christoph tells Lena, “I can’t tell you the end of the story...the only stories that have endings are the ones in books. But I can tell you what happened next.”

Purchase and read books by Peter Stamm:

The Sweet Indifference of the World by Peter Stamm It's Getting Dark: Stories by Peter Stamm Unformed Landscape: A Novel by Peter Stamm Seven Years: A Novel by Peter Stamm


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Tuesday, December 7, 2021

The Other

A poem about grief.


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Tuesday, November 30, 2021

Child Inside

Poem about fireworks and childhood by Ingrid Lobo written on a photograph of a sunset.


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Thursday, November 4, 2021

Daffodil

Pen and Ink Drawing of a Daffodil by Ingrid Lobo



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Friday, October 29, 2021

Fear by Thich Nhat Hanh

Fear: Essential Wisdom for Getting Through the Storm by Thich Nhat Hanh

Fear: Essential Wisdom for Getting Through the Storm (2014) is a book by Zen Master Thich Nhat Hahn. It provides guidance on coping with fear in our daily lives, including our fears of loneliness, being abandoned, change, separation, uncertainty, being sick, and dying.

In Fear, Thich Nhat Hahn has a gentle and understanding way of presenting his advice and teachings. He explains that we must not let ourselves dwell in the past because the present is our true home, saying,

“I am aware that happiness depends on my mental attitude and not on external conditions, and that I can live happily in the present moment simply by remembering that I already have more than enough to be happy.”

Thich Nhat Hahn explains that we should not be limited by our pasts, our presents, or even our futures. He describes how people replay old events from the past, and then react to new events as though they were the old ones. To counter this tendency, he reminds us that we can react to new events differently as fresh moments and to be grounded in the present. Although we can explore our pasts deeply, it is important not to dwell in sorrow or regret.

To cope with loss and death, Thich Nhat Hahn reminds us that those we love have not disappeared, but instead have been transformed into new forms. We must continue to enjoy life because those who have died are still close to us and have not really disappeared from our lives. In thinking of loss in this way, we can overcome our grief.

One of my favorite quotes from the book is the following advice he gives about examining our feelings:

“Observe your feelings—whether they are pleasant, unpleasant, or neutral. Feelings flow in us like a river, and each feeling is a drop of water in that river. Look into the river of your feelings and see how each feeling came to be. See what has been preventing you from being happy, and do your best to transform those things. Practice touching the wondrous, refreshing, and healing elements that are already in you and in the world. Doing so, you become stronger and better able to love yourself and others.”

Thich Nhat Hahn describes the Buddha’s teaching that suffering can be caused by having wrong and erroneous perceptions and gives the following example, “You see a snake in the dark and you panic, but when your friend shines a light on it, you see that it is only a rope. You have to know which wrong perceptions cause suffering.”

This example struck me. As a child, I was walking in a park with my younger brother. I saw what I thought was a rattlesnake. I was afraid and grabbed my brother’s hand to protect him from the snake. As I looked more closely at the “snake,” I realized that it was just a broken beaded necklace and not a snake after all, and my fear disappeared.


Purchase and read books by Thich Nhat Hahn from his Mindfulness Essentials Series:

Fear: Essential Wisdom for Getting Through the Storm by Thich Nhat Hanh How to Love by Thich Nhat Hanh How to Relax by Thich Nhat Hanh How to Connect by Thich Nhat Hanh


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Friday, October 15, 2021

Milk and Honey by Rupi Kaur

Milk and Honey by Rupi Kaur

Milk and Honey (2014) is a book of poems and artwork by Rupi Kaur, an Indian-Canadian woman. At the time of publication, Kaur was 21 years old. The book is divided into four thematic chapters: the hurting, the loving, the breaking, and the healing. It concludes with a final "love letter" to the reader from the author.

Rupi Kaur writes in an extremely personal, daring, and revealing way, exposing her innermost thoughts and feelings in her poetry. The book's themes cover pain and trauma as well as love and healing. Through her poetry, Kaur reflects on womanhood, femininity, family, love, race, lovers, sex, heartbreak, relationships, loneliness, and art. Most of her poems are short, and with a just a few words, they pack a punch.

One of my favorites poems from the volume is the following:

the thing about writing is
i can’t tell if it’s healing
or destroying me

I found reading Milk and Honey to be cathartic, touching, and inspiring. This book is such a good reminder that we can all find healing and purpose by writing and creating art. I look forward to reading future volumes of Rupi Kaur's poetry.

Purchase and read books by Rupi Kaur:

Milk and Honey by Rupi Kaur The Sun and Her Flowers by Rupi Kaur Home Body by Rupi Kaur


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